When I was a senior in high school and applying for colleges, I applied at Texas A&M University. I didn’t really want to go there, but I knew it was a good school and I should apply because, well, everyone in Texas applies at either A&M or the University of Texas. While I was waiting […]
Do you like yourself?
I knew this girl in college. She doesn’t know this, but when I think about the type of person I hope to be one day, I think about her. And I think it’s because of this: She liked herself. How could I tell? She was confident, fun, funny and totally weird in the best kind of way. She didn’t wear make-up often and she usually had on this old, bright blue Northface jacket. The zipper was broken, so the jacket always hung lopsided. She wore it anyways. She had a sense of who she was unlike other people I knew at that time, and she was a magnet for not just me but everyone she came across […]
I was reading a book on a plane the other day called Change Your Trajectory by Bishop Dale C. Bronner. This isn’t the type of book I expected to make me cry, but it did. As soon as I read this: “Transition is a terribly uncomfortable place for you to be in your life. You […]
I have an irrational fear of being a bridesmaid. I fainted during a ceremony a few years ago and ever since, when a friend has asked me to be in her wedding, I get flashbacks of blurry vision and wobbly knees. The reason I fainted a few years back was because the ceremony took place […]
A few months ago I had a week full of fear related to my work. I felt overwhelmed and the thoughts running through my head looked something like this: “I don’t know what I’m doing.” “This is too much.” “I need to just find another job.” “I’m not going to be able to fulfill everyone’s […]
I don’t get many emails these days. Before I began writing full time, I was a publicist. Being a publicist means being available on email most of the time. I didn’t want to miss an urgent media request or an important question from a client. I would send at least 100 pitch emails a week, […]
Callings go through seasons. Sometimes you’re in an exciting season in your calling. You know what you want to do, you’re pursuing your dreams and you’re achieving success. Sometimes you’re in a disappointing season. You took a risk, things didn’t work out and you feel like you’ve failed. And then sometimes, or a lot of […]
This phrase has been running around my head lately: He’s not the one that got away. Did you catch the “not” I slid in there? I thought about it one night when I was cooking and listening to the Civil Wars. Their song “The One that Got Away” came on and got me thinking. The song […]
A friend recently introduced me to a fabulous talk Brené Brown gave at a conference for creatives. You can watch it here. In it, she uses the metaphor of a coliseum-type arena as the place where we display our work, art, ourselves. The place where we must be vulnerable and put it out there. Whatever […]
Still, well into adulthood, I find myself just wanting to fit in. It’s not in the same way as it was in high school of course. I’m not hoping to be invited to the right party or pretending to smoke a cigarette or claiming my drink in my plastic cup isn’t water. This was how I “fit in” as a teen. Today, I want to fit in with a life that follows the appropriate succession of events.
I have this bad habit. I like to plan out my day and keep a running mental list of all of the things I’m going to do. Then when I am doing task one, I start to think about task two. When I start task two, my mind wanders to task three. And so on […]