If you’re a parent, you know how scary it is when your child starts pulling away from you. And it’s frightening when they stop communicating. These, of course, are all natural phases for kids to go through, but they’re scary all the same.
It would be tempting in times of destruction and loss to focus on the negative, the terrible. It would be tempting at times like these to shine a light on what Satan has done and what Satan is doing. But we shouldn’t. We should shine a light on what God has done, who God has made brave and courageous, and what God is doing in the world.
Today, I study the Bible and it certainly seems alive but it’s not like it used to be. I find the Bible fascinating and am still drawn mysteriously to Jesus but it’s more like being with somebody I’ve spent years with than with somebody I just met.
I’ve always been fascinated by that verse in the book of James that says our lives pass like a vapor. That’s a realization hard to internalize. I believe life is eternal, but I don’t believe we have a whole lot of time in this phase, the walk around on earth phase. I wish I could spend less time feeling the urgency of things that aren’t actually urgent and more time exchanging meaning with those people and causes that matter.
Some artists are entertaining and some entertainers are artists. Both get applause but the applause means different things to each. For the entertainer, the applause is a false reflection of who they are, a balm for their wounded and fleeting sense of worth.
Ever wanted to get somebody back? You may have disguised it as seeking justice, or revealing a wrong or whatever, but the truth may be more complicated. We want to hurt those who hurt us. And it’s a killer.
I’m an introvert. I can spend a month alone in a cabin (and have, many times) and never even dream of getting lonely. In fact, I recharge by being alone. That said, being alone for long periods of time isn’t healthy for me and when I do it I get a little strange. When I reenter civilization I have trouble engaging in conversations without beginning to daydream and it takes practice to get my mind to cooperate with the unspoken rules of society.
I heard some advice for writers once saying we should picture a reader as we write. Some writers have even gone so far as to put a picture of their spouse or their grandmother atop their computers.
I picture God as I write. And here’s why…
I firmly believe the desire to control another person comes from one place: Fear. Most controlling people have no idea they’re controlling at all. I certainly didn’t. And I was most definitely a control freak.
Scary Close is about dealing with our issues so we stop hurting people and start helping them. It’s my story about hitting rock bottom because I’d ruined yet another relationship, then about the unique way in which I got help from a crazy therapy center, then how I learned to have a true, honest, healthy and intimate relationship.
Tomorrow is the big day. Scary Close releases nationally. And yet I left one thing out. I wish I could write one more chapter and stick it somewhere in the middle. If I could, I’d write about something that happened to Betsy and I the other night.